I was feeling a little nervous just because I choreographed this number in like an hour, and despite my liking it, I thought it might be too easy for these girls who have been dancing for like… ever. basically. And I was gonna try an across the floor exercise and wasn’t sure if the girls were going to invest whole-heartedly into it… They’re a little hesitant when it comes to trying different things.
But it actually worked out really well. After I warmed the girls up, I went into the across the floors and although the girls were very reserved at first, they really got into it by the end, like they actually opened up. Thank God, since I’ve been trying to do that for the past two weeks.
And then we went into the combination. We’ve done a lot of Hairspray and Footloose and “conservative” numbers like that, so I decided to throw in some grit this week, so we’re working on “Saturday Night in the City” from The Wedding Singer. Apparently, I did something right because the girls seemed to really fuckin’ like it. They actually got into it more than the last couple routines I’ve done with them. And then the owner of the studio [and women who hired me] came out to watch and I felt really nervous as I continued to teach the combination. After we ran through the first part of the combo a couple times, she started smiling and like bobbing her head with the music [that sounds really lame] and I felt like she was really liking what I was doing, like I had gotten the stamp of approval. THANK THE LORD. And after my nerves rested, I really started getting into teaching and doing this number with the girls and honestly, I felt at ease. The last couple times I had the girls perform it without me doing it with them, and I really don’t mean to be a cocky bitch or anything, but that combination looked good… I was really proud of myself and then eight girls I was teaching, especially after having reservations at first.
When I was first asked to teach this class I was extremely hesitant… Although I’ve performed and danced in shows since I was eight, I’ve only had technical training for two years, so I wasn’t feeling exactly qualified to teach this class. Here I am teaching some amazing girls, who have been dancing since they were in diapers and I’m just starting my career. But after today, I feel ambitious, like a fire has been lit under my ass. I was driving home and I noticed how confident I felt. I want to have creative moments like this every day of my life until I die.
“Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come. Don’t let people happen to you; don’t let me happen to you, or her. She’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is. That is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth living, really.”—Harvey Milk (via concealing)
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You. would. Well… I hate to disappoint you, but you already know all my personal sex stories! Um… well let’s just go with that one time I drove to Santa Barbara for a certain someone that I was naively and stupidly “in love” with. [It wasn’t someone I met online as so many people think when I tell this story.] A week. Nothing to do. Apartment to ourselves. His boyfriend in Italy…. I’m not proud of this. haha.
This is gonna be really weird, but I REALLY like the way my scruffy facial hair makes me look thinner than I am… People think I am crazy, but this is a fact. When I shave, I want to hide away in a dark corner until the stubble comes back.